Regrets. They suck.

About 5 months ago,I made a big mistake and I kick myself everyday for it. I had just started a new school and was feeling kind of shy and out of place. I was sitting in gym class by myself (it was early in the year so we weren’t doing anything) when all of a sudden this group of people walked up to me and sat down. I can still remember almost all of their faces-there had to be at least 6 of them. Well,they just started talking to me and I was in a shell,answering their questions with one word answers and I’m sure my face was pink. Then after a while some of them started acting really crazy and rough. It kind of freaked me out. Suddenly all I wanted to do was get away from them. I don’t know why. I was especially afraid of the girl who was talking to me the most..I think her name started with a C?She was super nice-she just intimidated me for some reason. They all acted like I was their new friend-and again,for no good reason I wanted anything BUT that. So,long story short,after that point I did everything I could to avoid them,especially the girl that talked to me the most (I think she was the ‘leader’ of the group or something). It worked. I avoided them for weeks-maybe even months-until I was sure they had forgotten the conversation. But then I noticed something..in gym I’ve seen that they’re the cool people and everyone wants to hang with them. They seem to have so much fun compared to me. Now I’m really mad at myself for not at least giving them a chance. I think they could have been very good friends for me,I could have had tons of fun,and I would break out of my shell better than I do now. I’m really hoping somehow they could talk to me again-but the funny thing is,they seem to blow off other people now,but they really liked me,and I wasn’t the coolest kid around then. Anyway,it seems very unlikely that they’ll ever speak to me,and I’m too shy to go up to them. In the mean time,I’m so mad at myself for not giving them at least a chance. I’ve tried forgiving myself,but I don’t know,I just have a feeling that if i had followed along with that conversation,I could really be having a blast this year. It sucks. :(